Hard Habit To Break

I am about to write another blog post inspired by a song.  I should tell you up front that music is a big part of our everyday lives in this house.  And it is very common that we will sing song titles all day as we hear phrases that match.  It is also common that we will have music playing in the back ground and every person will either sing along or sing their own song over the music.  It is chaotic.  And perfect.

My last post inspired by a song was "It's So Hard To Say Goodbye To Yesterday".

When I was around 9 or 10 I would steal my brother's Pointer Sister's tape and get out my portable tape player, a blanket and head to the back yard to set up for my gymnastics routines.  I would blast The Pointer Sisters and attempt to do some gymnastics.  I continued to sneak their music as long as they had any around.  One album I took and never gave back was Chicago's album Chicago 17.  It came out in 1984, I was six.  I listened to that album for years and memorized every single lyric.

The other day one of the songs from that album came on the speakers at the dentist office while one of my girls was getting her teeth filled.  The dentist and I had a fun jam session and reminisced about the album.  He was the exact age of my brothers and though it was funny that I knew all the songs.

Ok...all that to say, the song "Hard Habit To Break" has been running though my mind for weeks but especially this past week.

I woke up Easter Sunday grumpy and not in the spirit of the holiday.  We were supposed to go back home to spend Easter with family and friends but had to cancel our trip.  So it just didn't feel the same.  I also woke up feeling frustrated because I have been taking new supplements and adjusting things in my lifestyle to try and help my health issues and they are only getting worse.  Not sure if things get worse before they get better but I woke up fed up.

Fed up because it was Resurrection Sunday.  You know, the day Christians celebrate the fact that Christ rose from the dead therefore changing our lives forever.  I woke up thinking about this verse :

^{Romans 8:11} The Spirit of God, who raised Jesus from the dead, lives in you. And just as God raised Christ Jesus from the dead, he will give life to your mortal bodies by this same Spirit living within you.

Really, all of Romans 8 has been challenging me lately and I have been really wrestling with it.

I went to church with a mission.  I wanted the power that raised Christ from the dead in my life.  And the pastor spoke on exactly this.  I was ready to have a little faith and ask God again (I have asked for healing in this area of my life before) to help me acknowledge that I have Christ's resurrection power in my own life and to start everyday asking him for it so that I could conquer areas of my life.  I had a friend pray for me at church on Sunday and then came home with a plan.


I would juice and blend my meals for 30 days.  Just to detox and break some habits.  I decided I would eat dinner because that is the only time I really sit down with TJ and chat about our day so I would still partake in our evening meal.


I survived a week.  It is not so hard.  I have done stuff like this before so the shock of it is less and less every time.  But more than anything, it is the habits that are hard to break.  Really hard.  

For me, I have noticed that when I am upset about something or frustrated with things not going well with my health, I feel crappy.  And because I feel crappy, I punish myself per say by eating crappy food to match the emotion.  Hum, interesting.   So I have been trying to pause during these times and speak truth over myself and beg for Christ's power to help me in that situation to not treat myself that way.

Negative self talk, you are a Hard Habit To Break.


It is hard for me, and I am sure many of you to be kind to yourself.  To tell my self that I am enough, that I am beautiful, that I am making healthy choices, that I am victorious.  SO hard to feel victory in something that is such a mess in my life.  But I am pressing on and having faith and speaking out Romans 8 over and over and declaring Christ's OVERWHELMING VICTORY over my health.


Really, you should Read Romans 8, it is all about walking in the spirit and Christ's love.  Good truth.

Do you have any areas in your life where you are trusting God's power to give you victory???


Here is Chicago's video.  Ah, good times.  Good music.  Get out a hair brush for your microphone and sing your heart out!