Mediocrity

My new revelation for this week is that great friendships are hard to find. My teenage neice has been staying with us for the summer. Not only do her and I look alike but we act alike too. We both are total dorks, we love to laugh, like to do the same things, and find the same things funny. As I have been thinking about this summer I was realizing that I have laughed more in the six weeks she has been here than I did the whole rest of the year! How sad is that. I love to laugh and be goofy and have fun but I had forgotten that about myself because I don't have any friends here who are the same. Which is just depressing.

I have been thinking about the friendships that I have and trying to look past the fact that they are all great women who love God and really evaluate and decide if they are life giving or life sucking. Just because they are Godly women does not mean they will make great healthy friendships. And I am starting to realize I need to find some more friends because I am boring and sad with the ones I have. When I am done hanging out with them I don't feel refreshed or blessed that I got to experience great friendship. I usually feel blah.

Settling for mediocrity is something that I cannot stand in other people or in myself. It drives me crazy when people settle for crap because they don't want to do what it take to change. Not that I am perfect, I totally struggle with this in certain areas of my life but for the most part I am always fighting for something better. How did I miss this in my friendships? When did it become ok to have mediocre friendships? Friendships that just exist like still water, never changing or moving. I know how hard it is to find great friends and it is rare to have a handful of lifelong friends so I am grateful for the ones I do have but realizing I need to find some more, because I need more joy and laughter and fun in my life.